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it's my birthday!

2009-11-03T13:43:00.000-08:00

hye,it's my birthday!!!!
happy birthday to my own self!
be a good girl ok~~~~

(^_^)v

real holiday begins

2009-10-24T04:03:00.000-07:00

hye,
after turning myself into panda-pandai-bercakap for about 2 weeks, i'm free now!this is what we call FREEEEEDDDOOMMMM!!!yeay!

last day of class was on 16th oct 2009 but i'd one more assgnmt to submit on 20th oct.therefore, i declare 20th oct 2009 as my VICTORY DAY! thanks Chris for ur kindness~~*wink*

so, my holiday starts with malaysian night:when malaysians see orange a.k.a when orange isn't just a colour..nice meh! have a great meal.for the GOD sake, i ate a lot dat night.mcm org kebuluran xjumpe mknn seminggu..xcaye?
bukti die i langsung xpay attention kt perfrmance..sorry guys..i'm so damn hungry. but i like razif's video presentation; 1 malaysia.best2..
the best thing dat night apart from food, the pic session wth senior yg dis year da nk graduate..=_="..sedey lak nk pisah..isk..iskk..1 more thing, for da very 1st time i wear dress..heehhee..i like! tp trase trlebey ayu plak..@_@

n then i abeskn mase kt bilik the day after smbl marathon korean series; when it's a night..best2..suke!unpredictable cite tu..3rd day pon same..marathon movies..

yesterday, i went to miramar..pg weta cave!cool gile~dpt tgk behind the scene cite lord of the ring,narnia,king kong..tau cmne diorg buat prop..production die cool gilak!dpt tgk dpn2 frodonye cncn..xnyesal pegi..pastu odw blik brnti tepi pntai,ingt nk picnic tp sbb it's so cold,decide mkn dlm kete je..n then around 6.30 pm arrive at stafford..

today xbuat pe except g keje+blik masak ngn che nad tok umah trbuke sok..especially for akak2+warge stafford yg da nk graduate..tq akak2+kwn2 laki kt stafford.korang rowk!

hidup makin sunyi

2009-10-19T05:46:00.000-07:00

hidup makin sunyi bile..

lecture da xde tok diponteng

tutorial da abes tok ade mkn2 free smbl dgr songs

assignment yg transform-aku-jd-panda-pandai-cakap sume da submit

test eng yg susah-tahap-nak-mati da dijawab ngn mengarutnye

test alin yg tak-yah-pk-sume-ade-dlm-buku da jawb

open house da abes

kawan-kawn kt mlysia bz ngn exam

housemate trchenta bz packing brg nk blik esok..isk..isk(hv a safe journay dear!)

senior2 cohort 4 yg aku syg gile2 da nk blik

conclusionnye:aku kesunyian~

sekian, terime kasih

Tulip Festival~

2009-09-26T20:42:00.000-07:00

today, i go to botanical garden for tulip festival celebration organized by Wellington. first time of my life i see lots of tulip with my own eyes. GOSH!!!It's so beautiful.lots of colour.everyone enjoys the scenery so much.i go there along with my friends;yana, hema, estee, geam, grace n abol.we take series n series of pics.we also meet people who are sooooo interested with Malaysian people n we've been models for a while..hehehehe..funny lol!

i've upload the pics in my fb..pls have a look..tq..^_^

open house punye cite!

2009-09-25T05:17:00.002-07:00

hey,
i just coming back from our cohort open house at mckenzies. and i tell u it was awesome!!!the best open house i've ever had.everything was perfect!
it started at 7.00 pm and at that time i was just headg back from kak jiejah's house. at first, it was like so quite.just us standing there. but later, there were a group of people coming from downstair and they were my friends..the clock tickd n people came n gone.the house was full and we had to request yana's house for 2nd place.some people had to move over so that everyone felt comfortable.

the menu for tonight were mee kari, nasi impit, kuah kacang, lodeh,nasi hujan panas with ayam masak merah n acar, cocktail, tiramisu, cookies, cakes, syrup, rendang, puding, cupcakes...so many of them..and we run out of them after a moment. we had to cook other meals so that everyone could eat. we were so sorry for the 'kekurangan makann'.hehehehe..

the reaction from wellingtonians a.k.a kiwis...
- delicious..i'm full but still want to eat..
- never see so many people in one time like tonite..so many malaysians and
they are so friendly...
- it looks nice..i should try this one..
- what's this?u make this by urself?awesome!
- i like those rice so much..n the cookies yummy..i should come to malaysia..it
must be lot of food like these..
- i'm not vege, so i can eat anythng..awesome!
- is it ur own recipe?or mlaysian people love to create the new one?never taste it
before..nice!
- can i hv extra 1?hehehehe

the reaction from wellingtonians a.k.a malaysians...
- sedap weyh..sape msk lodeh tu?
- nasi hujan panas da abes?ruginye...
- nak tmbh kuah kcg ke?kitorg tunggu kuah kcg smpai bru gerak..hehehe
- tiramisu sedap gile..
- pinggan2!
- pergh..aku nmpk mee kari, lodeh, nasi hujan panas..
- puding sedapla..nak lg ley x?
- ni dh kali kelime aku tmbh mknn..
- korg nk blik da?aku xnk blik g..mkn x abes g ni..jap g nk tmbh g..
- nnt buat open house lg jmput tau..wajib..hehehehe

p/s:rugi sape2 xdtg..nxt year kitorg buat lg..IA..

open house punye cite!

2009-09-25T05:17:00.001-07:00

kisah si pemijak kepala,si backstabber sejati dan si berubah hati

2009-09-22T03:35:00.000-07:00

org ckp, bile kite buat baik ngn org laen, kite dpt bnde yg same;org buat baik ngn kite jgk.tp kdg2 aku rase cm kene 'pijak kpl'.bnyk kali da tp buat snyp je.mls nk gtau.kang klu burst dpn2 lain lak jd.awal2 dlu ok je.tp bile da lame2,xley thn gak.sbb tu stiap kali aku rase aku nk trsrmpk@jumpe die,aku lari.mls nk tgk muke die.nympah+sakit hati+twr ati.sblm ni ade org ckp aku cm kmceng je ngn die.tu kt public je.tp yg sbnr aku je yg tau cmne.myb org2 yg 'pijak kpl' aku x prsn bnde ni tp aku ngaku yg aku hipokrit dpn org laen tp hipokrit aku brsebab.sebab korg2 kwn aku,aku xnk org laen tau ape yg korg2 da buat kt aku. dn aku rase da mcm2 da aku buat tok buat ko hepi+rase dsyngi.bnyk aku buang mase aku tok buat ko gmbire tp cm sie2 je.dah la.cukupla stkt ni je.aku nk kmbali kepde diri aku yg dlu.xpk sgt psl org laen sbb aku love to be alone.suke studi sorg2,suke window shopping sorg2,suke mkn sorg2,suke dok sorg2.sbb aku tau bile aku xdeal ngn org,aku xskit hati.tp semenjak 2menjak ni, aku suke pk psl org laen..trutamenye org2 sekeliling aku trmasukla si 'pemijak2 kpl' yg handal ni.mak aku prnh ckp yg setiap org brbeze,ade care msing2 nk deal ngn org laen. tp sume org brotak kan?xkn xley pk kot ape yg ko da buat. otak ade,pk la!!!!!

pastu aku cukup BENCI ngn backstabber!!!!smlm aku da jmpe sorg lg backstabber.yg ni dlu lg aku prasn tp aku xbuat conclusion g.smlm da trbukti mmg die bckstabbr sejati.dr dlu xbrubh2 lg.pesanan tok backstbbr tu:'aku taula cite tu.da klu org cite rhsia kt ko,jgnla g jaja cite kt org laen!.'klu cite ko kene dump ngn bf sbb main kayu tige ngn org laen,mesti ko malu kn???

si berubh hati ni pon 1.xphm2 lg ke yg org tu syg gile2 kt ko.snggp terjun sungai nk amek selipar jepun ko yg hrge 6-7 hinngt hanyut dek arus.tp ko still gak kuar ngn mmt yg aku pon xtau asl-usul.ko tau pape ke psl mmt tu?klu stkt muke hensem tp pisau cukur buat pe?kwn kite ckp die slalu tgk ko kuar ngn mamat tu..brkepit sane sini.yg ko nye bf lak dok jauh nun kt ovrc[uk] ingt ko setia la..xkuar ngn laki laen..brkepit br2..klu ko da x syg kt bf ko tu, ckp je.kesian kt die..ingt ko setia,syg kt die tp kt blkg maen kayu tige. klu aku jd ko, mest mnyesl gile.ssh nk dpt org cm bf ko skrg.pk la kwn!

never been this far

2009-09-16T02:40:00.000-07:00

there are only several days left before aidilfitri eid. i wonder what my mom's doing right now? maybe sewing our new hari raya curtain since last two weeks she was quite busy measuring those windows at the main room. my papa? painting the front gate i guess,like usual.want to know my papa's secret??he loves painting the same gate every year.non-stop!we used to ask him change the gate but he refused.i don't know what sooo special about that gate except it's colour.hehehehe.my eldest brother?except busying himself working all days, he has to take care of his new baby, Qaireen Aleesya and naughty-yet-cute Qaseh. what about my one and only sister, kak chik? kuih raye la....ape lg.......sape2 nak kuih raye, leh order k..free delivery..\(^0^)/..
abg mie is on his way home i guess. he just finished his study 2-3 days ago n now waiting for the interview..hope he arrives safely..syahir..well...i don't know what he's doing..maybe sleeping, eating, doing some community work and stuff...i really don't have any idea about him.. my little brother~he probably at his preparation class right now..

and i???????sitting at my desk, writing my blog while listening to hari raya songs, with several packs of tissue on the desk and assignment below those tissues...i never think that i'll be this far from my family..*sigh*...
but hey, it's ok...need to survive n experience this moment..look forward to go to sakura festival at palmerston north this saturday and circus prom this sunday at Micheal Fowler Centre!

p/s: klu raye ari ahad, raye kt circus promla nnt..hehehe
kpd abah,ma,abg2ku yg budiman lg baik hati, kakak yg memahami, adik
yg hensem lg tinggi serta anak sedare ku yg kecik+xphm pape g, slamat
hari raye aidilfitri, maaf zahir dn batin..klu gmbr raye last year abg mie
xde, taun nie ain lak xde..xpe2, jgn sedey2 ain..duit raye tetap masok..ma
da jnji nk kasi..hahahaha..^_^

i miss u

2009-09-10T05:28:00.003-07:00

when i look at the notification side in my fb, there's one thing captures my attention.
"upload pic of your grandparents.keep the memory alive"

suddenly i remember my late grandfather and grandmother on my father's side. my late grandfather was a great man. although he looked very strict but i know he had a kind and soft heart inside. unfortunately, i've little memory with my grandfather and i'm very sad since i realise how much i miss him now. i still remember during my child years, he and my grandmother used to take care of me while my parents at work. my grandparents' house was near the river and he always went there for fishing. i used to follow him around without telling my grandmother bcz i knew she won't allow me to go along. owh, i forget to mention that i used to call him 'baba'. Baba loved to sleep and before sleeping, he made sure that my grandmother was ok. sadly, that's only the memory remains about baba. he died because of 'jantung berlubang' when i was in standard 2.

my grandmother used to live with my family after baba left. since my house is a double stories, she can't bare to live with us since there's stairs to climb on.she can't walk bcz of her legs.she don't want my family felt burden bcz of her disability to walk like a normal person. so, she decided to go back to her own house. but we reluctant to send her and decided the best way was to bring her to my uncle's house nearby. i went there to see her everyday. brought her food, helped her take a bath, combed her hair and even dressed her up. i felt happy when i did all those things. until i got an offer to a boarding school. i can't see her everyday but i was ok with that since my brothers were around. i thought all the days, months and years she lived there, she was happy but i was wrong. my s***** cousins didn't take care of her that good since they cn't bare with my grandmother's way of speak. i knew that sometimes she quite harsh but bare with it ok.she was our grandmother.she used to take care of all of us without any complaint. i asked my father to bring her back to our house and my brother slept with her everynight in front of tv. i was happy when i saw her eating her breakfast, lunch and dinner. she used to tell me her secret. she ate nothing several days before since she didn't hv anything to eat n she was sick, didn't hv any drive to move. s****** cousins!!
one day, i used to see my grandmother crying in the toilet while taking her bath. she told me that she wanted to die so that my family can live freely without thinking of her. she missed my grandfather alot but didn't tell anyone about that, even my father......and i cried with her that day....n i don't stop crying until now..everytime i remember her face, i sort of sad....bcz i miss her so much...if i can turn the time backward, i want to love her all my heart and take care of her every single breath of mine.....

i miss u

2009-09-10T05:28:00.001-07:00

narrative discourse~

2009-08-22T04:25:00.000-07:00

salam sume..
today is our first day of fasting..alhamdulillah, slamt mnjlnkn kwjbn 1st day of fasting. u noe wat, today is the most memorable day of my life.1st time pose kt ovrc as well as 1st time bukak pose dlm lift..hahahaha..xsmpt smpai umh,bru blik dr kerje..seb baek aio ade.die bg kuey ketayap sbgai alas prot bukak pose. thanx aio..

xde pe da nk cite.nk smbg buat task eng 117 lak.esok nk kene antr. mntk dr dlu..
salam

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak kembali lg~

2009-08-19T03:42:00.000-07:00

salam semua..
selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak n slamt berpuase..rase happy giler2 sbb bln mulia da kembali lg. and the most important thing is this is my first time fasting oversea. in to be more specific, at wellington, new zealand. feel lucky because i've the chances to experience this barakah month in foreign country. my dream comes true.yeay!
yesterday, i skyped with my parents. my father has faith in me and believe that i can survive fasting here. of course abah!because it's shorter than fasting in malaysia.that is the very good thing!hehehe. just have to wake up around 5 am for sahur and surprisingly at 6 pm, it's already 'bukak puase' time..so lucky!
i'm just worried about my mom. last year, she used to cry during bukak puase because she thought of my brother, kimi who was working at mekah for that time. she also cried during pagi raye.poor mom~ i can't stand seeing my mom cry and i can't forgive myself if she cries because of me. T_T.
to my beloved and lovely mom, don't worry about me.i'm okay here and live well.just take care of yourself and pls do't work too much.u need to rest sometimes and eat well..i miss you mom..miss you so much..
i miss u too abah!
p/s: i sempat pesan kt abah suh simpan duit raye taun ni..ujung taun ni nk claim..hehehehe

CiLakAk PuNyE MAt SaLEH!!

2009-08-08T04:23:00.000-07:00

~hari ini dalam sejarah~
setelah bberape bln dok kt bumi brtuah the windy welly a.k.a bumi maori berangin sepoi2 xbrbahase, bru i realise dat mamat2 mat salleh yg aku rase OMG hot nye!!! ni rupenye xreti brbudi bhs+brtatasusila..aiii, rugi2..muke pnyela ensem cm Johnny Depp tp perangai cm cipan..mase kt library td, daa sah2 auntie tekan bell as a reminder yg lib daa nk tutp, pndai2la find a way out..tp ade sorg mmt kt level aku keje buat xtau je..bt pekak je..klu tlnga ngh sumbt ngan earphone leyla diterime g kepekakan tu tp ni x..1st tu aku bt xtau je sbb nk tgk reaction die. 2nd bell bnyik pon buat dunno..ley than mmt nie cbr kewanitaan aku..(p/s: wanita ke??hikhikhik)..so, aku pe lg.ngan lngkh brgaye+ykin ckp kt mmt tu suh kluar..ckp cmni:

aku: xcuse me.sorry, we're closing the library now.pls could u leave now?
mt saleh tu:yea, i know.i'm going now..

stlh bbrpe minit, die still ade kt situ ngn cmputer yg masih on (kt com site)

aku: xcuse me.i'm really sorry.could u leave now?
mt saleh: wait a minute. i've to finish my assgmnt 1st..
aku:but we're closing..like NOW..(control ayu)
mat saleh: hey, chill girl..i'm going..(ngan muke x brslh, die pack bag lalu blah)

ingtkn da abes part x brbudi bhase, ade lg rupenye..tyme pg cumberland td,jmpe ramai mt saleh kt bwh, ngh lepak ngn kwn2 n buat havoc..tyme lalu kt situ, ade sorg ckp 'hey u,do u hv fire?' pastu gelk2..xphm aku..mntk lightr tp pastu gelk2 smbl ckp 'shit'..

yg part xde tatasusila plak brmule d tmpt yg same..ade 3 org mat saleh ni ngh tnggu pe ntah kt bus stop..tyme tu diorg pakai suit nk g ball..encem..ssh nk jmpe kt mlysia students pakai suit pg dinner..siap bow lg..tp pakai proper, mulut ley thn..mnjerit2 pnggil kwn2 diorg kt aprtmnt ats smbil ckp 'fuck'..watch out your words, moron!!! yg mat saleh kt ats lak, pnjt tepi window pastu bukk sluar..astaghfirullah..xmlu btol..cept2 aku ttp tngkp blik..abes pmndgn indh brltr blkgkn wellington city aku mlm ni..stupid!!!!

hidop xslalu ceria T_T

2009-08-05T05:39:00.000-07:00

org ckp hidop kene slalu ceria, bru enjoy.hidop kene slumber,bru rock.hari ni adlh hari ni,esok da ari lain..so enjoy puas2 arini..ade la betolnye falsafh tu.....
tp.................................
aku xtau nape aku sedey sgt2 arini..dr pg lg..jmpe kwn2 arini, buat muke ceria je..mcm xde pape mslh..blik kels td aku g lepak sorg2 kt cuba street..merayau mcm xde arah tujuan..bile smpai bilik, hati aku 0..xde pape..aku xrase pape kcuali despair...bile bkk cite klakr2 pon,pas abes tgk+mkn, rase tu still ade...still xilang..air mate mncurah2 mcm air terjun daa..tisu pon da abes 2 plastik..thnk GOD ade sha..die comfortkn aku..die gtau yg myb aku ade bt slh smthg yg myb aku sndr xprasn..so,to all my friends, i'm truly sorry if i ever hurt u in any way, don't mean it..sorry...T_T

p/s: thanx sha.i really love u..thnx for being there for me when i'm ok or not..u'r my best friend (flo jgk tp 2nite die x on9)..i miss both of u so much.....

hObi bAru~

2009-08-03T03:04:00.000-07:00

gmbr kt bwh ni amk mase kt taupo, odw blik dr rotorua.tyme tu brnti mkn+solat jap.. ni la schedule aku for dis sem yg bz mcm nk mati..yg kaler2 +dlm circle tu assessmnt+test on da same day...*sigh* T_T

container kt depn tu aku beli kt 2 dolar shop..murah je+cntik..hehehe..tyme ni ngh gatal2 tgn nk amek gmbr property sndr..bru je blik dr rugby nite+smpai bilik..teros snap gmbr ni..

daa lame daa nk amek gmbr cmni..rase kagum lak bile daa dpt wlaupon amek ngn camera cybershot pink ku yg biase tu...hehehe *gumbira*

lets the world knows~

2009-07-27T23:54:00.000-07:00

lets the world knows that i miss u....

lets the world knows that i can't live without u.....

lets the world knows that i adore u....

lets the world knows that i am nothing without u......

and most important, lets the world knows that i'll live with u forever.....

~sweet memories~

i miss all about us!!!!!!!!!

a tribute to x2.2:

sanggetha--> counselor-to-be

sam--> next britney spears in line =p

estee--> the oldest n plg manje

shogi--> attention seeker (p/s: can't help it)

hanis--> discipline teacher in future

kak long--> our mom

aisyah--> beautiful 'ustazah'

irr--> outspoken n class search engine

jiji--> sweet gurl

batip--> the chatterbox (don't u dare to challenge her!!)

nad--> best cooker

adel--> love to laugh!!

jemi--> our understanding bro

faidz--> pro babysitter

naem--> lysander

pok jak --> the flirter..hehehe

andi--> youngest philosopher

ide--> our 'serai wangi'

fikri--> best photographer n pastri chef

hafiz--> shy little boy

nadzirah--> glamorous grammarianz (gnti mdm hazian nnti..=p)

shidah--> best speaker in the house

mira--> cat greatest fan

salwo a.k.a chiwa--> food supplier

whatever nickname u have, i love + miss u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

x suke!!!!

2009-07-26T23:43:00.000-07:00

arini dlm sejarah bulan july 2009,aku xsuke ngn condition tekak aku...x suke!!!!!!!!!

pg td ok je..daa normal daa suare aku..tekak pon xskit daa..batok daa kurg..

tup2 tetibe tyme lecture, die buat hal..aku rase cm there's a hamster ngh berlari2 dlm tekak..geli+gatal siot!!!bile rase cmtu, batok je la keje..spnjg lecture lak tu..air mate lak xbrenti meleleh..segannye~T_Tyg plg kesian fatin kt tepi aku.at dat moment,she's recording the lecture using her phone n i think all she gonna listen is my cough instead of the lecture..huuuuuuuu...sorry tin~

what to do???????? T_T

there's always first before second

2009-07-24T21:59:00.000-07:00

hi guys~

dis is my 1st blog i ever hv.rase bangge lak tetibe ngn diri yg bute techno ni.(p/s:sah2 kene kutuk dgn khirol nnt..aiii...)well,xpela.at least dh ade.klu org pk aku ni idop zmn batu sbb bru create blog, dat's ok sbb there's always FIRST before SECOND...

cume dlm step zapin je start ngn 2..nape eyh?interesting~

ok2.kite tingglkn topic zapin yg xde kene mengene lngsung antare yg idop atau yg dh xde.

1st thing 1st, thanx to someone who urges me to create dis blog. u know who u r..

2nd, i got a new cousin yesterday!!!!!!gumbire2..cm aku lak dpt baby..hahaha..xsabau betol nk kawen..masok minang cepat!!!=p

dahla..smpai sini dlu la yek arini..bnyk keje g nk buat..

daaaa.......